Thursday, February 12, 2009
My big brother accepted my friend request on Facebook and I cannot remember the last time I was this excited about something! I know that sounds wierd, but I haven't seen or had contact with him in over 12 years (I think I was 14 the last time I saw him... and it was very brief). I won't go into too many details, but he's my half-brother and there has been a strain on his relationship with our dad, which I think is partly why he and I haven't been in touch. I think about him quite often and I've always felt like there was a part of my heart missing because I haven't been able to have him in my life. I've tried to call him in the past, with numbers that I was told may or may not still belong to him. He wrote a note of congratulations on my wedding website about six months ago and I googled him (feeling like a complete moron for having to google my own brother!) and found an email address for him. I emailed him and never heard back, so I thought he didn't want to talk to me. Yesterday, my mom reminded me that his birthday is next week so on a whim, I searched for him on Facebook and found someone I thought might be him. I added him, not knowing what his response would be. I've thought for a while that he must not want anything to do with me if he hasn't tried to contact me after all this time. When I got on FB this morning I had a message from him! He asked if I'd gotten his message on my wedding page and thanked me for sending the friend request! Now I'm thinking I may have sent my email to the wrong address. He wasn't ignoring me, he probably never got it! My best friend's office is next to mine so I called her in here to tell her that I found him and I just broke down crying. I'm trying not to get my hopes up too much because I don't know yet how much contact he'll want to have (if any) but just seeing pictures of him and knowing what he looks like now and what he's been doing has done my heart so much good. I'm so thankful for this little bit of contact and I'm praying that we can slowly build a stronger brother/sister relationship.